Little did I know that overcoming low self esteem would be my next and immediate agenda.
All I was doing was working at a job I hated and watching a lot of television. I was seeing double out of my left eye and my right side became weaker than my left side. To make a long story short after getting my eyes checked out proved to not help matters, I was finally diagnosed with an inoperable malignant brain tumor at the back of my skull and given 3 to 12 months to live.
After the initial shock, I resolved to heal myself by overcoming low self esteem.
I entered Lions Gate Hospital in September 2014. I was bedridden for 2 months. I had 15 radiation sessions which ended on November 14th.
At the beginning of my stay in the hospital I could barely walk. I had 2 physiotherapists one on each side of me, a belt wrapped around my waist with one of the therapists hanging on to it and me holding on to a 2 wheel walker dragging my right foot. By the time my radiation treatments ended, I was walking on my own completing several circuits around the floor I was on.
1). Daily affirmations:
Writing or speaking
affirmations out loud in front of a mirror has an immediate impact on
overcoming low self esteem. These
positive statements that are in the present moment change our
negative thoughts and belief systems into positive ones. See self esteem affirmations.
For example: The one affirmation I speak out loud into a mirror is: Miracles happen every day. I now go within to dissolve the pattern that created this tumour and I now accept a divine healing. And so it is!
Examples of affirmations to overcome low self esteem:
2). Choose life
I didn;t know it at the time in the summer of 2014 I was choosing death – I hated my job, watched a lot of tv and didn;t have much energy for anything else, and I had a brain tumour that I was unaware of.
To choose life is to consciously affirm life. We do this by saying out loud to ourselves or quietly, I choose life. It,s as simple as that. A very powerful positive affirmation.
3). Be supported
I am a very independent person who rarely accepts support from others particularly family and friends. I don,t like the attention and not having it all figured out ahead of time means I am not in full control of my life. After my diagnosis I had to allow myself to be supported. I had to let people into my world. I could,t be an island any more. I had more family and friends around me then at any time in my life.
4). Creative visualization
Every radiation treatment I had I used creative visualization to imagine the radiation working and shrinking the tumour into nothingness.
Creative visualization is a powerful powerful tool. Its like using your imagination in a focused and organized way. When I had my radiation treatment, I closed my eyes, and imagined the tumour getting smaller and smaller. I also repeated over and over a positive affirmation about what I wanted to happen.
5). Stay in the present moment
Everything happens in the present moment. Life happens in the present moment, change happens in the present moment. Overcoming low esteem happens in the present moment. The past is over and the future is not yet here.
6). Feel the feelings
Rather than stuffing my feelings with food, work, avoiding them by watching TV, etc I felt them. I was scared so I felt the fear. I was angry so I felt that. Feeling the feelings.
7). Take responsibility
The most important
action one can do to overcome low self esteem is to take
responsibility for one;s life. What this does is take ownership of
our lives and everything in it. We stop playing the blame game and
give up being a victim in our lives. See self esteem exercises.
Making a commitment to overcome low self esteem is one of the most rewarding things we can do. When we do this we feel better about ourselves and everything and everyone in our lives.